Another Mortal Life

I was reading this wonderful post by Vibhav last month, which, among other things, urged the bloggers like me who had almost stopped writing to resume it. Tell you what, I was really inspired. Now you may ask, what then took me more than a month to come up with a post. Well, I wasn't busy buying any curtains, bed sheets or book racks, I was just being lazy. And my good old laptop, with its 15 minutes' out time, didn't help much either.

Writing has never been an easy thing for me. I've had friends laughing when I'd tell them that a certain sentence took me an hour to write. I used to get angry at myself for the amount of time I was 'wasting' in writing those posts. These days, when I go back to those pages, I feel ecstatic. But I know, and I know really well, that time I spent blogging was much more than I should have spent. The number of pages in this blog wouldn't reflect the number of hours I've spent writing them. The hours have been extraordinarily more. More spontaneous souls among us, like Phoenix or Divesh, would consume only a tenth of the time in coming up with similar sort of posts. Anyway. As I said, I feel ecstatic reading those pages these days, and, in some silly way, I'm proud of having wasted those hours.

The urge to express through poetry is dying. When I am in a certain mood, I flip through the pages of this blog, and most often, I do manage to find a post that helps. At times when I don't, I move over to the blogs of you guys, and the search most certainly ends there -- I needn't dig deep in my own brain – I needn't write something new.
I've been listening to ghazals more than ever. And whenever I'm in a certain mood I do manage to find a ghazal with exactly the same mood. We're freaking one billion out there. Chances are, none of us is living a unique life. Kind of sad. But, as I said, it confirms I needn't write anything new.
Okay. Let me just become a critic.
I've sometimes wondered about the variety in ghazals. On surface, all of them seem to be collections of a few rhyming couplets. But some couplets would be easy to break in a four-liner, while there would be others which won't be lengthier than a line. I think the later ones are more difficult to write.
“Nasir is dayaar mein... kitna ajnabi hai tu.” - It would be difficult to find a couplet, in any ghazal, with fewer words than this. If you know one, please share with me, I'd love to listen/read.

I know listening/reading others can never be as satisfying as expressing oneself. I will come back. Of all the things I've loved in this life, the love for poetry has lasted longest. :)

“Meri saari umr mein.. ek hi kami hai tu.”

Okay, we seem to be drifting to other topics, let me just go buy some curtains. :P Catch ya later.