I've too many things to write about, but I don't feel like writing about anything in detail. So I will write a few lines each about a few unrelated things.
I am lost
Yes, and I took so long a time to realize. I don't feel like I would be proud of this phase of my life a few years hence. I wasn't like what I am, nor did I want to be. I want to be the same person I used to be some 4-5 years back, 'coz I am still proud of him. A few of my friends say I am better than him, but it's no good if I don't feel it like that. And I've realised that it's what I feel about myself that's more important than anybody else's opinions about me.
Only thing positive here is that I know I can find myself again. No matter how much down and out I feel at times, there's always something that tells me that real me can resurrect, can start from the scratch.
Saurav Ganguly
There's something about Saurav Ganguly- hate him, love him.. but you can't ignore him. I used to be the most vehement critic of this man when he was performing so badly. I wanted him out. And when Mr. Chappel came in to make the wishes of the thousands like me come true, I realised I never wanted it that way. He became my hero the day I found almost everyone was bent on ousting him. Certainly he didn't deserve that sort of a farewell. The clips of Steve Waugh's last test match used to strike me hard those days. What was it in Saurav that nobody cared to give him a befitting farewell? The most successful Indian captain was made to look like the worst thing ever happened to Indian cricket. Why?
But this man is tough. He was shown the door after his first tour in early nineties.. came back resurgent in the middle nineties.. and went on to be the captain later on(of course, not all were happy). He shook the English hypocrites, he hit the Ausie sleazers by their own weapons, and made India into a team no one could consider an underdog.
He is selected once again for the Test team. Even if he is bowled out for a duck, I would still consider him to be the greatest of all his contemporaries.
SRK doesn't understand
After the horrible Don, the news has it that Shahrukh Khan will be the new host for Kaun Banega Crorepati! Man, You are not an iota of Amitabh Bachchan, Just be the K K K Khan.. only that suits you. But yeah, the show can be good if you don't try to copy AB. If any of the original KBC dialogues are still kept in the new version, they will meet the same fate as "Don ko pakadna mushkil hi nahi namumkin hai". When AB delivered this dialogue, it was Don's voice. When SRK utters it, it's all drama- some inexperienced person on stage who knows he is not what he is trying to behave like and also knows it's tough to make audience believe he's Don.
Academics
I think I've to come up with a better approach towards studies and examinations. This time the only course I devoted some time in was PHP. The dropped first sem of the first year has skewed my life a lot. My ambitions to complete the degree in 7 semesters has had its toll on CG. I know if I've to do it I've to be more serious towards studies. Another option is to let everything go on smoothly and use my eighth sem. This might help in improving the CG also. Don't know why but the dream of attending the convocation with my own batchmates even after loosing one sem gives me more satisfaction than any CG.
I've got about a month to ponder it.
Irresponsibility towards myself
OK. I don't like inorganic. I never liked it. It is such a rattu subject. (But didn't I knew it's one half of CY120 before registering it as OC?) This guy won't study it at all! As if this is against my ethical code! I don't care. Go hell inorganic.. I just wanna pass the course and organic would be sufficient for that. End result: 4/50 and 24/50. Man you don't pass at 28/100 ! I left the Major's answerscript of the co-ordinator's part of the course blank... BLANK...
God, Plz help me give up such kiddish eccentricities. I can't afford such things in my 7-sem-degree plans.
Philosophy da hukka
The contrast in The Introvert's writing and talking skills was evident yet again when he found the class highest marks for minor 2 (along with many others scoring equally) and the class's second lowest marks for the presentation both displayed against his name. Ohh ma'am, presentation wasn't that bad considering it was almost sponty with only 1 hour of work and with no power-point to assist me. I thought you were different from some other humanities teachers who mark students for the beauty of their ppts.
The dilemma
There was this friend who didn't sleep the whole night studying for the next day's 10:30 exam.. did sleep at 8 am. At 11, prof called his name and we realised he's not there. I asked the prof whether I could make a call to him. He allowed. I did. Then he asked what had happened to him. I told him the guy's coming. He reached at 11:15, didn't get extra time. Prof told he could've taken a re-major (of full duration) had he approached him later on with a medical certi. I don't know whether it would've been better not to call him.
Home
Would be going home tomorrow. Mom, dad, sis, I missed you the way I miss you only.
Warrants are also issued against me by daadi, chacha, nana-nani, maama, bua etc. I'd surrender, guys! (But check your extradition treaties :D). Vikram ko pakadna mushkil to hai, par namumkin nahi hai. :D
C ya friends! I'd miss everybody who comments on this blog, and also the few who've stopped :P
(Happy birthday in advance, Taru!)
December 5, 2006
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Thanks Vikram! That is soo sweet of you.
Ask me for a treat someday if I'm in a good mood next sem!
Have fun at home dude...enjoy vacations..would miss you though!
Happy finding-yourself...and becoming responsible et al.
and yes, even I'm waiting for Sourav to get back in the test side n play reasonably...even if he is not a good batsman any more he was still a great captain. I wanna see his long on sixes to spinners all over again. I would have freaked out too at his stupid ouster from captaincy, but it is Rahul Dravid and Rahul Dravid is Rahul Dravid. Fullstop.
enjoy.
Yeah!! Thanx for the offer!
'If u r in good mood'- okiee! wud try to read ur face,.. though i guess u r mostly cheery! but things can be different if somethings dear are left behind in Sweden :P
Hmmm.. that's how Chappell managed The Ouster : Everybody loves Rahul Dravid!
This was quite an interesting post. I guess when we try to say little things about ourselves, we end up doing exactly the opposite.
Anyhow, here are my comments:
(1) If you are lost, find yourself. I guess it is more important for us to respect and love our own selves, than care if the world does or not. I could relate to this part of the post the most :D
(2)
I am cricket-illiterate. But yes, Rahul Dravid rocks. He's hot and sexy and cute and sweet and humble and ...
(3)SRK can never become AB, however hard he tries. But AB will leave this world one day, and ppl like SRK will take over, thanks to their illustrious careers.
(4)You have a month to ponder, dont you? Lol.
(5)It would have been better if you had studied. For me, chemistry sucked bigtime.
(6)My marks fluctuate too. I had a full 100 in mechanics and a mere 55 in electrical, in the 2nd sem. Luckily I passed (We need 50 to pass).
(7)You shouldnt have called. Apni bhi exam bekaar kari aur uski bhi.
(8)Enjoy your stay at home!
And happy bday Taru!
Yeah! Didn't I tell u last time that u'll like my 'next' post!
(1) I guess I didn't change caring for the world. I myself am responsible for all that. Acceptance by the world just illuded me into believing that the change was for the better.
(2).... and not single :D :P
(3)It's one thing taking over the bollywood.. it's another taking over the hearts!
(4)Didn't get why "lol"?
(5)You r right. Anyways, it was optional kinda course, therefor not gonna repeat it I guess!
(6)50!! (more than half our class wud fail at that criteria. We need only 30 (unless otherwise specified))
(7)Can't be that sure! The profs can refuse re-majors (and a significant number of them do). No one can help it, not even Dean!
(8)Thanx.. u too enjoy ur time!
(u should wish her 3 weeks later. I did now 'coz I won't be around then!)
all my somethings dear are left behind in IIT. that's why it's so hard to be cheery here :P
But I was known for being generous with treats...Catch me if you can! ;)
Four months out there in Sweden,
tough for someone still-smitten! :D
Neways, that ensures u'll be all the more cheery here!
Yeah, I definitely will!
"I don't feel like I would be proud of this phase of my life a few years hence. I wasn't like what I am, nor did I want to be."
Reflects my current mood. Hmmm...reflects my perennial mood. Every phase seems worse than the one before...!
Regarding you being lost… there are generally two sources of satisfaction with oneself i.e. the opinion of your acquaintances about you or your own opinion about you. Here you segregate the two and reject the former like in the true introvert way! You know the best thing with introverts is their ability to think originally, their tendencies to work independently and of course the innovation they bring about in whatever they do though it may feel weird and out-worldly to others.
Everything is as important as you believe them to be, including studies… evaluate the options and make your own decisions… I felt bad on reading about the convocation thing but sadly I can only feel bad… nothing more.
Regarding Philosophy, this is a subject in which the marks you get on paper don’t reflect the soundness of logic you display on your written examination, again you don’t get marks for beautiful ppt’s in philosophy. It is a subject to be braced and understood, and not just be passed or scored; in one's own benefit.
You can get the answers to the major-dilemma issue in some course on philosophical ethics.
Have a good time at home.
lovely post :)
and i hope im there in the ones you've thanked :p
cute post!!
I never hated ganguly even when he was performing badly....
and well agree with most of wat u've said....minus the personal :)
[Siyaah]
That makes me feel normal. Everybody is in such moods at times, and some even perennially!!
[Somewhat anonymous]
Well I think giving too much importance to other people's opinions is what makes people introvert. Though u may b right.
The thing about ppt was only sarcasm/frustration of the day.
Rest all agreed.
I respect the little fraction of ur anonymity I couldn't eliminate!
[canary]
Thanx!
And you are in the former few!
[chandni]
Performs or not, Ganguly knows how to b the news. These days everytime I switch on TV it's not to know how much did India score but how much ganguly did!
And the personal will be almost absent from the next year!
I can fully relate to something in this post, my first OC was CY120, and I got screwed.
[V]
Gud luck for this sem, dost!
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