Another Mortal Life

Let me start with admitting that temptations have always been difficult for me to resist. And that, while I'm caught up in one, no good advice seems to register on my eardrums or retina - Not even those big hoardings of what-not they put in front of hospitals.

This one was building up for quite some time. On every occasion when I got my chance to go for it, (and I must admit that the frequency of such chances has hit an all time low in recent times), I have thought of going for it that way. That such preference for a particular way might even force you to stop the activity altogether, seems to be the only reason I've continued with the general ways of the public in these times- the safe, protected ways.

The thing with hitting an all-time low is that your tendencies to experiment come under severe check. Even the fact that you've done it this way before too doesn't help much. Those big hoardings of what-not go against you. Popular opinion goes against you. And when you're no longer a regular at it, you must obviously agree that others know better. Everything tells you there are set ways of going about things; temptations be damned.

But temptation, like most human feelings, intensify in deprivation. When you are on an all time low, when you've stopped keeping that rubbery thing at your ready disposal (though there are people around who do have them and they do spare one for you when requested, it doesn't feel good that way), and then when you get the chance, you're intensely tempted to go for it that way.

Let me now tell you that I went for it that way, today. It was not like I didn't have access to those protective measures; I had one. And I started with it, like all these months. But you'd agree that things are not even half the fun under constraints. And then, this thing failed me in the middle of it. I wanted more. I put on the shower, cold water shower. Those hoardings of what to do and what not to do after two weeks of cough, the buckets, the constraints, all be damned.

I enjoyed it after a long long time.